So this is love....

Love - A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

Here lately is seems like I am consumed with thoughts of love...all kinds of love. What is means to love my savior and vice versa. The love of parents, families, friends, and spouses. It takes all shapes and sizes and forms. Also with this thought of love, comes the thought of where love is lacking.

I am amazed at how God loves me! The even more amazing part is, I can't even really begin to grasp how deep that love is. More and more God is showing me what true love is and looks like....from himself and from others. In my happiest moments, to times when no words come due to tears, God loves me unconditionally. Unconditional love is such a hard idea for me to grasp. In most of my experiences, love has been very conditional. God is so gracious and forgiving and full of this unconditional love, that it makes me tear up just thinking about it! How can He look at me and see my thoughts, actions, and intentions and still love me? How can he see me run from Him and stray and still love me? I'm sure I will never fully grasp it, but words cannot express how thankful I am for that love!


Another thought that has been laying heavily on my mind when it comes to love, is the thought of men. It seems lately that I have been bombarded with the wrong men and temptation and the feeling that good men no longer exist. It feels overwhelming and sometimes it just makes me want to burst into tears. Somewhere, deep within me, I hear God pulling my heart and saying, "THOSE MEN EXIST!" "WAIT FOR ME AND MY TIMING!" "WAIT FOR WHO I CHOOSE TO LOVE YOU LIKE I INTENDED!"


However, we are human, and sometimes it is hard to understand why things happen or to wait for God's will. It is hard to love someone so much and they don't want you. And you just want to give them everything good you can. Show them things can be good and last, but they don't see you. They look right past you. It is hard and there are tears, but God has a plan and I will cling to it. Even if it feels like the plan will never come, I will hold onto Him for dear life because the Lord is the perfect man! He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will love you unconditionally and fill in those spots in your heart that feel empty.